My Song

Before improvising lullabies for my children, I had written only 2 songs in my life: both during my early teen years, neither very impressive. One was about Christ's incomprehensible sacrifice, and the other about pondering as a child (although I thought I was so mature at the time), whom I would marry. The lyrics have evolved over the years as I met that man, married him, and had my first child with him, to whom I sang her verse of the song. For the first time at bedtime tonight, during what seemed like endless rocking and singing to our fitful second child, our oldest son, I thought to sing him his verse.

(The original song, as I sung it as a child, also recorded and played at my wedding as the flower girls walked down the aisle):
Sometimes I wonder, what he is like,
The man that I will marry and cherish all my life.
Often I wonder, "What is his name?"
Sometimes I wonder if he asks the Lord the same.
Whether he is handsome, or kind or brave or strong,
I know that forever my heart to him belongs.
And Lord I know that he must be
Above all else, eternally
Committed to You first and then to me.

(As sung to Lainey, our oldest, since birth):
Sometimes I wonder, what he is like,
The man that you will marry and cherish all your life.
Often I wonder, "What is his name?"
Someday I know, he'll ask about you the same.
Whether he is handsome, or kind or brave or strong,
I know that forever your heart to him belongs.
And Lord I ask that he might be
Above all else, eternally
Committed to You first and then to Lainey.

(As sung to Jackson, our second, for the first time tonight):
Sometimes I wonder, what she is like,
The girl that you will marry and cherish all your life.
Often I wonder, "What is her name?"
Someday I know she'll ask about you the same.
Whether she is pretty, or has the gift of song,
I know that forever your heart to her belongs.
And Lord I ask that she might be
Above all else, eternally
Committed to You first and then to Jackson.

(As sung to our third, a yet-unnamed son still in the womb, also for the first time tonight):
Sometimes I wonder, what she is like,
The girl that you will marry and cherish all your life.
Often I wonder, "What is her name?"
Someday I know she'll ask about you the same.
Whether she is pretty, or has the gift of song,
I know that forever your heart to her belongs.
And Lord I ask that she might be
Above all else, eternally
Committed to You first and then to him.

Lord, I do not know if my children will marry, but if they do, I pray that each will find a companion to accompany and encourage for the rest of their life, always on the path to You.